To Be or Not to Be?!?

Mature or Immature...

That is the question

From the time that we are young we have a desire to be seen as an adult. Imitating mature actions without really understanding them. Then suddenly maturity hits and reality sets in.  Life as a child was simple and beautiful; No worries, complications or chaos (except that which we inflicted on our parents ;)). Now, as an adult, those things are daily occurrences. 

Not to say that being an adult is completely terrible, because it is not. I have been blessed with so much and have witnessed some miraculous things. Which I would have never understood as a child. I have experienced being a wife and mother, which was what I aspired to be ever since I was young. 

So, to be or not to be...

Well, truth is, we are neither one or the other.

There are times that we are meant to be mature and then there are times when we are not. 

Immaturity does not need to be frowned upon in some areas. Embrace your inner child!

Sometimes it feels as if I have forgotten how to use my imagination. Which is really hard when you have an only child who looks to you to become his playmate. When I finally am able to reach my inner child, it is then that I connect with my son the most.

One night as my son, CJ, was climbing into bed for his routine story time I decided to spice it up a little. My mother use to tell me stories using me as the main character and I loved them. Now I could pass this down to CJ, I figured I would retell the story of Aladdin, but a simpler version. 

"There was a little boy named CJ and he loved to explore and find treasures. One day while CJ was exploring he came upon a lamp. The boy thought it was the neatest treasure he had come upon. CJ brought the lamp back home to show his mother, but before he reached the door to his house he noticed it was a little dirty. So, he decided to clean it up a little bit before showing it off. After a few moments of him wiping it off with his shirt it started to tremble in his hands. Pretty soon smoke arose from the lamp and out popped a genie to grant him 3 wishes."

By the look in CJ's eyes I could tell he was enjoying the story. I asked him what would be the three wishes he would wish for?

"A red vacuum for me, a yellow vacuum for my mom and a flower bed," he replied.

Now if you knew my son you would understand his wishes. He has always had a fascination with vacuums. It had melted my heart that he also was thinking about me while he was adding his wishes to the story. As for the flower bed, he was referring to his old mattress that was in storage, lol. 

CJ absolutely loved the story. He continued to talk about it for a whole week. Now he makes comments that when he is grown up he can buy whatever he wants. (Sure that's how it works ;), who needs wishes)

It is not always easy to tap into the young spirit we all have and bring it out into the open. With having a child I know that I need to reach my inner child more. Of course, I can't have my inner child stay. So it all comes down to balance. As a mom I constantly feel regret. I go through the questions: Am I am doing a good job, was my childs needs met and etc. I know that I am doing the best I can and that there is always room for improvement.

I think that it will always be that the kids will want to jump into the future, and the Adults will want to jump into the past. But, the present can be filled with both joys of  immaturity and maturity has to offer.

You might be thinking this girl is crazy, where did she come up with this? Yes, this is a little off the wall and I am a little crazy (crazily awesome! ;) ). It came from one of my many random thoughts of the day. Whats yours???